I have "this." I love this. I've always wanted this.
But... then there's "that." I want that too. But I don't have that.
I tried for a year to get that. Put myself though a lot to have that, and at one point I thought that was within my grasp. I thought I would have this and that. But then that was taken and I was left wondering if I would have the opportunity to have that again.
I put that on the back burner and decided to focus on this. Part of me feels like this will suffer and be neglected if I put much more effort in to that. Shouldn't I be grateful for what I do have? Shouldn't I put my all into this? This is here. This is a gift. This deserves my best.
But what about that? I want this to have that, more than I want that for myself. I feel like this would go well with that. I worry that this could resent me for not doing what I can to get that too.
I fear I may regret not trying again to have that.
I don't want this to get the shaft while I'm trying to have that.
I am eternally grateful for this. Don't really know what I would do with out this.
6 comments:
You want that because you love this so much! Just do a little of this and a little of that and have faith that everything will work out right. :-) I will pray for you and hope you get this and that, and that, and that....:-)
I totally agree that giving your this a that would be the best thing ever for this! IT is amazing that even with a this and a that, they both get everything that they need from you - and more because they have each other. Best wishes in your quest of whatever you all decide!!
This and that were and are all in the Lord's hands. You are an amazing woman and are always trying to do what is right. That means that will fall into place...sometime....somewhere. I pray that it will. :)
I totally love this post. It can be taken a few different ways. I am so in love with your positive, silly, & inspiring personality. I am going to post it on my blog if you don't mind. I think it aptly applies to my life as well...in a completely different way. :-) Best wishes little momma!
Cool post. I love it. I want my this's and a that too. The this and that I have now are so fun, but I totally know what you mean by wanting another that. Someday it will happen for you. In the next life I hope it will happen for me!:) Your this is so cute and I'm sure that when you get that it will be just as fun and this will love it! I'll keep you in my thoughts and prayers.
I want you to have a that too. You're ALWAYS in my prayers!!!
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